Last week I registered my business license as inactive, the health care and social insurance office changed my status to "dependent", I wrote all the bills I could and passed unfinished work on to as many different people as possible. Today I closed my office, stopped having my email sent there and changed the answering machine to say that the office is closed for the summer and to stop notifying me of messages. What else could I have overlooked?
My operation will be on Monday, so now I just have the weekend to wind myself up about it. I'll be glad to have it over with, and then I will just have to wait and see how it goes afterward. This time I am determined not to strain my eyes trying to do things on the computer and "keep up" with the rest of the world or try to do "just a little" work. That was how I ended up with an inflamed eye and an almost broken toe two years ago, and I was still exhausted for months afterward. I like to think I am still capable of learning from past mistakes and not repeating them.
When I complained to a friend in California about not wanting to declare myself a "housewife and mother" to be insured with Peter (even though there is a clear financial advantage to that, since I will have no income until my eyes have stabilized and I can get new glasses), she suggested I might declare myself a "conscientious objector to work". I like that idea, but I am still trying to think of things to do that are not "work" and don't involve computer screens. I seem to be running out of ideas.
For the weekend I think I will just have to hassle Christopher. A few nights ago I couldn't get to sleep at all as I started worrying about him getting sick on Monday when neither of his parents can be reached (Peter won't get home from Berkeley until Monday afternoon), and for days now I have had the impression that he doesn't look well at all and he seems to be tired all the time. Wouldn't that be a great way to start the summer?
