Friday, August 22, 2008

Baby, you can drive my car


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Originally uploaded by aderieg

Last Thursday when Peter, Christopher and I went to Wilhering to see yet another summer theater production involving a number of friends, Christopher drove.

It was the first time I had ever been in the car with Christopher driving. At first I had to consciously remind myself not to think about a car being a potentially lethal weapon, not to wonder how my young son might ever have learned to control this dangerous machine and how well he might have learned that. Once Christopher managed to maneuver the car out of the garage with all the walls and mirrors still intact, I forced myself to relax in the back seat, so that I was able to appreciate what was going on in the front seat.

Actually, I was very impressed with both Christopher and Peter. It was reassuring to see Christopher looking so responsible and alert, and Peter seemed very calm, attentive and quietly helpful with his remarks and praise – quite different from the way he drives himself. I am glad that Christopher is learning to drive with Peter, and it was very good to see them together like this.

That was then, this is now



Since Paddy always complains about the ridiculous pictures I take with my phone, when I was looking for something else recently and found our old digital camera instead, I decided to try that one. I especially wanted to take a picture of the construction site below our balcony that has been driving us mad all summer and add it to other pictures of construction sites in Linz to express my irritation at this kind of preparation for European Capital of Culture next year.

Taking a picture of the construction site didn't work very well, because there was a big colorful streetcar blocking the view (but not the noise!). Christopher was a bit startled at having his picture taken on the balcony as I wandered around trying out the camera, Paddy and Omar just ignored me. The next glitch was when I discovered that our old camera is so old that it doesn't communicate with my laptop. Foraging through a drawer full of cables just made a mess without producing anything useful. A few days ago I was in town, so I bought a card reader, which now mediates nicely between the old camera and my new laptop.

What I found on the old camera surprised me, though. Among pictures of Peter's instruments I found pictures from Christmas 2005, which reminded me of how this blog got its name: that was the Christmas in between Christopher's episodes of meningitis. Looking at the pictures, I remembered shopping for Christmas presents with him, seeing him looking so drawn and exhausted, and as we talked about Christmas plans, in the back of my mind there was a different script constantly running, quietly preparing a "plan B", in case he was back in the hospital for Christmas.

Looking at the pictures made me sad, but it is all the more encouraging to see the difference: that was then, this is now.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Short summer days

Is this summer over already? Where did it go?

Sitting on the balcony this morning, I was surprised – but then again not surprised – to see that the leaves on the big tree in the next garden are already beginning to turn. Somehow I feel as though I am still in some kind of a daze trying to keep things straight in my mind. No doubt my dear sons will tell me I am just getting old.

First there was the end of school, the chaos, commotion and confusion when Christopher failed Spanish, and whether or not he would still be able to go to Albuquerque became a huge and difficult question. Although reserving a flight for him became an exercise in absurdity, I was relieved when his ticket came through and we were able to see him off at the airport. I'm very glad he was able to visit Grandma after all, even though it was only for a week, although I missed him very much while he was gone.

In the midst of all that, Paddy spiraled straight into loquacious Asberger mode, which can be hugely entertaining, but also slightly strenuous on a long-term basis. Oddly perhaps, for someone so afraid of traveling when he was little, Paddy's method for re-engaging with his environment is to set off for somewhere else. The first somewhere else was Burgenland, where there was to be a Paul Simon concert that he got tickets for. When the concert was canceled due to violent storms, Peter reached Paddy before he got to Vienna to change trains, so Paddy stayed in Vienna that day. The next day he took a speed boat to Bratislava to catch a flight to London to see the new Batman film. He then managed to return from London via Bratislava and Vienna again just in time to go with the rest of us to the premiere of "As You Like It". The night before the final performance of "As You Like It", Peter got a message from Paddy that he had just decided to take the night train to Bregenz to visit a friend there, and he hoped we wouldn't mind. Eleven o'clock at night, Paddy suddenly decides to go to Bregenz. That sounds like a perfectly normal and reasonable thing to do, doesn't it? The next day I heard from him that he had forgotten to take socks and underwear with him, and he had managed to buy socks, but he was having some difficulty locating a shop where he could buy underwear. Bregenz is not a big city, but it is the capital city of Vorarlberg, the western-most Federal Province of Austria. It is indeed possible to buy underwear there.

In the meantime, Peter has been practicing his usual summer activity of attempting to bilocate – at least. As he has become quite adept at operating the lights for summer theater productions, developing a keen interest in theater along the way, he was so happy to be asked again that he agreed to do the lights for overlapping productions in very different locations.

With my three men moving rather confusingly in all directions, I think I overlooked making a sensible schedule for myself as well. For several weeks I found myself in the car with Peter every afternoon about five, heading for a small village near the Czech border, not returning home until about two in the morning. This makes for very short days, during which I did not manage to finish all the work I had planned to do during that time. I have been told by various people that this should not really surprise me, but I still feel somewhat perplexed.

Is summer really over already? So when do I finally get to rest then?